My story of how I became a Fascist is one that may not be what the reader expects. I was never a skinhead or belonged to any Neo-Nazi organizations. I was not bullied or abused as a kid. I do not come from a broken home, nor have I ever been in jail. I am just a middle-class, university-educated guy with working class roots from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
I grew up in a loving, middle-class Protestant home where both of my parents were Republicans. My parents instilled of love of reading and learning early on. They were also the model of hard-work, as they were the first on either side of the family to rise above the working class. My father was the also the first of either side to attain a University degree. They both stressed study and humbleness as well as patriotism.
For as far back as I can remember, the school subject that I loved the most was history. And to this day, history and politics are very, very interesting to me as they are both intertwined. Even so, I just took cursory interest in politics while growing up and in high school. My parents were Republican, and being that's how I was raised, I was one too. I didn't delve too deeply into political theory, but knew generally the difference between Left and Right, Democrat and Republican. I started listening to Rush Limbaugh on the radio around the beginning of my freshman year of college. I thought about majoring in history while I was at the University of Pittsburgh, but job prospects for that subject didn't seem great, so I went with a different major. It was at Pitt that I had my “political awakening” for a lack of a better phrase.
Two instances stick out in my mind as to pivotal points as to when Fascism became a legitimate option for me. To the reader, they may seem small, throw-away moments, but to me, they were huge epiphanies. The first was a paper that I had to write in a history class about our personal thoughts on capital punishment. I recall writing that I felt that the reason the death penalty wasn't a great deterrent was that it wasn't being applied correctly, (that is to say it was arbitrarily applied as different states had different laws.) I argued that if the federal government applied the death penalty across the board, you would see differences in deterrence. I also argued that the reason it costs more to execute a criminal than to keep him jailed for life is due to a totally false economy, that is, lawyers choose the prices of services and tie up court dates with legalistic red tape. To put it bluntly, bullets, rope, gas, electric chair etc don't cost a whole heck of a lot. For this, my professor wrote on my paper in red ink “You sound like a Fascist”. I took pride in my term papers and I was incensed that my professor wrote this on my paper that I worked hard on. After I calmed down, I said to myself “Well, that's what I think, so if that makes me a Fascist, then I guess I'm a Fascist,” and stored it away in my memory bank.
The next epiphany was late that same semester when another professor in a film class admitted that he was a Marxist. (He was in his 50s at the time, was named Vladimir and was from New York City.) While I disagreed on some of what he said, I greatly admired him for his guts to have a radical view and not back down, (Try being a professor and telling students and peers that you're a Fascist...) although in his defense, he was not preachy and never tried to preach his socio-political ideology on us. I put the two instances together and thought “Maybe I am a Fascist...and if I am, maybe I should be proud of it, because that's who I am.” I began reading books on the history of Fascist Italy and I was reading books written by Newt Gingrich (who may be the only modern US politician I admire, aside from maybe Ronald Reagan.) From there, I started reading The Political and Social Doctrine of Fascism and My Rise and Fall by Benito Mussolini, The Philosophy of Fascism by Mario Palmieri, Fascism Viewed From the Right by Julius Evola, and Jeffrey's Schnapp's A Primer of Italian Fascism. It dawned on me that these views were almost my own. For the first time, I truly began questioning some things about the American system. I noticed a legal system that is out of control. Lawyers and judges could manipulate anything they wanted. You didn't vote for them, yet they seemed to have total control. Which lead me to (finally) realize that the democratic system no longer works. It was not easy for me to finally admit to myself and others that I thought democracy wasn't all it's cracked up to be.
I believe that when this young nation started, democracy worked. It worked because the population was small, thus your vote actually, literally, counted. People were at a beginning of a great adventure with a new, untamed land, and though differences in thought occurred, (political parties,) people needed democracy to work. But it also seemed to me that as the nation grew older and more mature, and the population became greater, democracy became a bit of farce; your vote got lost in the shuffle because the population was growing so rapidly, money and connections became more necessary, voter fraud began and special interest groups began manipulation of the system. The idea of giving a smart person a vote and a stupid person a vote and having it mean exactly the same thing was absurd. I saw how Democrats' views and positions were mostly vile, traitorous, impractical wastes of time, money and resources, in addition to being grossly hypocritical. They were telling the supposed “oppressed” they would make their lives better, but nothing seemed to ever change. I was much more agreeable to Republican positions, however I noticed how only a few Republicans actually had the guts to fight and stand by their positions. Most only cared about their wallets, not the country or its people. Democrats would complain that Republicans would never reach across the aisle, but as soon as the Republicans did, the Democrats would stab them in the back and to me, it became crystal clear that if you give ANYONE of the Left an inch, they will take a mile. Republicans didn't (and still don't) seem to have learned this lesson.
I became concerned as well as to the role of the media. In the early 2000's, Harvard and Stanford Universities performed a study that showed that the mainstream media has an overwhelmingly Left-wing bent to it. Around the same time, I remember reading an article saying that a recent study of journalism students stated that the number one answer to the question “Why do you want to be a journalist?” was “To change the world”. I found that kind of frightening. I began seeing that it makes sense that Left-wing media will hire Left-wing employees...who want to change the world. I also saw how much of a shill the Mainstream Media is for the Left in general and the Democrats in particular. It seemed that democracy was being undermined. The media can't show you all the news in the world because there's just too much of it. So they have to pick and choose what they think (or want) you to know about. Then after they choose the topic, they slant it if they so choose. (Remember, they're hiring people who want to change the world in an overwhelmingly Leftist field.) Essentially, what it boils down to is this: The Left has a position. The media tells you what it is and why it's so great. If you don't happen to agree with that view, you are branded a racist, sexist, homophobe, Islamophobe, or (gasp!) a Fascist! The court system (with Leftist lawyers and Leftist judges) back this up with rulings and lawsuits until you submit. What we have here then is a Left-wing party (Democrats and Marxist/Socialists) with a Left-wing propaganda apparatus (the media), enforced by a Left-leaning court system that does not answer to the People.
Well, why would I vote then? If I cast a vote, it only really counts if my candidate wins, right? And even if my candidate wins, what guarantee do I have that he/she will keep their campaign promise? And let's say they do attempt to keep their promises; what if they can't actually do anything because the other party is preventing them? And say that they do keep their promises, we live in a weak America where anyone can file a lawsuit to prevent a law or challenge a bill just because they don't like it. Even if the President writes a bill and it is passed, the Courts actually allow or disallow it, so you end up with a long, dragged out process that hinders the democratic process itself. Twenty-first century American Democracy is now a lumbering political dinosaur that is not equipped to handle big problems and surely not quickly. It does not serve the people well anymore. We need something else, because the ship is sinking, folks.
So, I researched and joined the American Blackshirts Party. I kept reading, kept thinking, and kept applying Fascist thought and framework to my day to day life. With the risk of possibly offending, it was like finding religion. I feel disciplined and have a political purpose. And while sometimes it is difficult telling people I am a Fascist (and having to inevitably educate them that, no, I'm not a Nazi,) it is becoming easier. To my mind, Fascism can be described both by what it is and what it isn't. And descriptions of such can fill books, so I will try to condense my thoughts into a very basic, short essay of sorts.
It's a revolutionary socio-economic political ideology. It is NOT just “a hard-line conservative Republican” who is a capitalist first, an opportunist second and an American third. Fascist thought and action are intertwined. While the Fascist may defend some capitalist ventures and situations so as to have a productive society and nation, it is not just some bully for capitalists as Marxists would have you believe. The Fascist knows the value of work to the individual, the pride of his/her work and the financial pay that it brings. To this end, unions have gone wayward and now essentially extort the management, (“Give us what we want or we strike”) as well as defending the lazy and uneducated. (although depending of the job sector, this is not always the case). Union members should know that their products or services benefit the nation and its peoples, so when they strike, they only hurt their fellow citizens as well as national prestige. On the other hand, the management has an obligation to pay their employees well and treat them well for the same reason that they are providing a service or product to society and owe it to their fellow citizens to provide quality. Both should never forget this they work for and with their countrymen.
Keeping this in mind, Fascism to me is also a positive nationalism. As I like to say “Nationalism Kills Class Warfare...Dead”. Nationalism defeats the petty materialism and class warfare that Marxist Communism or Socialism espouse due to the simple fact of Man's ability to feel and quench his spiritual need. Communism and Socialism often bring their people misery because you are expected to provide services and goods based on “you do what you do so you can eat, “ without any thought into what you are doing or performing or why you are doing, thinking, making, etc what you are doing. It's a life on a treadmill. The irony is that the “Worker's Paradise” is anything but, because there is no incentive. However, with Nationalism, you are making, playing, doing, thinking, etc for the purpose of a greater nation. It's living in harmony because all do what they do to make a greater whole. Class warfare is no longer because the people are part of the whole and a shared culture, not some artificial class based on material and economics alone. The military becomes stronger, tougher, more motivated. The student shows an increased willingness to learn. The athlete strives for greater glory. The worker takes greater pride is his/her work and the capitalist/manager strives to make better items and treat employees better. Because each of us relies on the other to do so. In that sense, Nationalism can be seen as “positive” because it binds all races, both sexes, and ages etc to a common goal...as opposed to the “negative” Marxist class warfare because it only (and always) divides.
I've also thought of Fascism as defending the middle-class. In Mussolini's Socialist days (and some of Fascist days) the middle-class was bourgeois, and to be disregarded due to a sort of “wishy-washy-ism”. However, in 21st Century America (and indeed most, if not all, first world nations,) the backbone of the nation is the middle class as they are the largest, most educated, and have the greatest skill set. A first world nation can do nothing without it. It needs its values defended.
Fascism can also be described as to what is NOT. It is not Left wing (nor totally Right wing for that matter, although I would submit that it has much more in common with traditionally Rightest ideals than Leftist ones.) In this non-Leftist vein, it is not Socialist, despite that communal aspect and symbolism of the Fasces. Socialism often means a domestic tyranny, as well as pacifism abroad. Citizens are made to feel “less than” and guilty for supposed crimes that they did not commit as well as fostering this weak, self-hating view abroad so that other peoples and nations just see you and your nation as to be trodden upon, because in Socialism's eyes, you are a first-world citizen and therefore are guilty by association in your nation and deserve whatever actions any nation or people have toward you. Instead, it is a Third Way where it can take aspects of both Left and Right and combine them. For example, one could be pro police, and pro military, and pro-Christianity (which would be traditionally Right views) but also pro-environment and pro-animal rights (which are traditionally Left wing views.)
Importantly, it is crucial not to be confused with Nazism or even the ordinary gainsay of authoritarianism. Fascists (Italian) can be distinguished from Nazis due to the subject of race first and foremost. Many people state Nazis as fascists with a small “f”. Even so, there are many trappings indeed, but also differences. One of which is glaring: Nazis are called Nazis. Italian Fascists are not called Nazis, because they're not Nazis; they're Fascists. It's that simple, but the average American doesn't know that (and is often too lazy to find out) and it is crucial that they do know it, without losing true Italian Fascist ideals. I would hate to see ABP become confused with Left-wing Marxists or what-have-you due to an obsession with proving themselves not to be Nazis. The People need educated.
It is also not “just” authoritarian. America is in the mess it's in because of voting and democracy. The US system of democracy is not set up to handle emergencies and is just too cumbersome. But just because one feels “oppressed”, does not mean the person responsible is a “Fascist”. I can't tell you how many times I've read or heard (or how angry it makes me) when people say “Antifa is Fascist because they're against freedom of speech”. They are not Fascist at all, they are against freedom of speech, and just because they don't like freedom of speech doesn't mean they're Fascists. Communists suppressed freedom of speech too, but people just like to throw around the term “Fascist” to try to make (an ill-conceived) point. Again, the people need educated!
Fascist thought shows clear ways and not murky, which-way-the-wind blows, wishy-washy democracy. Fascism can lead the way. Fascism Forward!